Ups & Downs

Living a life of ups.
Living a life of downs.
right now this life has
more downs than ups.
how much?
How much more can i take?
I am not sure, only giod has the
answer to that question.
it has to get better then this.
i am on the edge.
my nerves are frazzled.
i feel as if i am being driven
into the ground by craziness.
i feel if i get hit by another
down, i may never get up again.
i need to come up for air.
i feel as if i am swimming in a
sea of despair.
it has got to get better.
for my own sanity it better.

wrote on 04/15/2001