Destiny

Spring water flowing freely
down a hill.
Meets a stream.
The stream takes the water
on a journey to its destiny.
The stream then meets the
rushing river.
The river welcomes the
stream with open arms.
The the river continues on
with the journey of the
destiny.
The destiny is the Ocean.
The Ocean gladly accepts
the river into its mouth.
Devouring it greedily.
Making it one with itself.
Finally the journey of destiny
is complete.

The Black Death- Ode to The Exxon Disaster

the oil barge floats,
floats upon the water.
floats like a babe in a
mothers womb.
something was wrong,
the captain was losing
control.
CONTROL!
the barge smashed,
crashed upon the reef.
pointed and jagged the
reef tore the barge apart.
black oil, the black death,
poured out of the barge.
like blood from a wound.
the black death covers the
waters like a shiny blanket
of death.
suffocating what ever it
touched.
along the coast the black
death covers the beaches
and shore lines.
Animals wither in pain as
they suffocate in the grip
of the black death.
the black death ruins and
destroys what it touches.
mother nature withers in
pain as the black death
envelopes her in its
black grip of death

Wisdom

Wisdom comes by way of
lessons, both painful and not,
learned, by way of mistakes
made.
Mistakes are made when
wrong choices are made.
wrong choices are made
when you ignore that
little voice inside you
saying "do not do that."
To gain wisdom you have
to live life.
When life is lived mistakes
will be made, and wisdom will
surely be gained.

wrote on 06/06/2004

One of my first tries at poetry, again *please forgive me*

Heavy Metal Head Bang

The Band comes on stage.
the music starts to play.
you start to sway to the beat
of the drums.
The beat melding with the
beat of your heart.
The music takes you to a
world of sound.
Of emotion.
The music takes you higher
and higher.
Then the music grows to a
wild crescendo.
It turns you into a head banging
freak.When the music stops,
it makes you feel like the bottom
has dropped out from under you.
You Crash.
You want the music to go on forever.
But for that you know you must wait
for another day to hear
The Head Banging Music

wrote on 07/05/1996

A couple of funny holiday poems *forgive me*

Two Beets and an Egg

two beets and an egg.
kind of sweet.
kind of neat.
and oh so good.
as it should.
be cause my aunt
made them with love.

wrote on 11/24/2000

The Time is Near

The time is near,
Christmas is close at hand.
soon Rudolph will be on
his way.
he will be helping the
reindeer pull Santa's
sleigh.
They will be being all the
good little boys and girls,
a big bag of brand new toys.
But beware.
If you were naughty, Santa will
know, oh and he will know.
Christmas morning, you
may get a shock when all you
find is a lump of coal in your sock

wrote on 12/14/2000

What?

what have i become?
i am like a ping pong
ball bouncing around.
Life's troubles like
paddles hitting me.
sending me bouncing
through life rebounding.
Hitting the walls at full
force.
when will i be able to stop?
when i hit the final wall
of life and pass from this life?
Or will i pass onto a better
life after this? or will i get the
same?
or will some one save me from
that final blow?

wrote on 02/15/2000

Who Care?

who cares
about me?
who cares
if i live?
who cares
if i die?
as far as i can
see only me.

wrote on 01/24/2000

Mr. Right?

why do i pick the
wrong person to fall
in love with?
i never find the one
i am to be with.
But i ask this question..
Does he even exist? or
is he just a figment of my
over active imagination?
all around me i see people
with their lovers.
why cant i find my love?
Perhaps he is looking?
looking for me?
he just has not found
me yet.
as i have not found him
either.
some day we will find each
other.
That is when we will become
whole and complete.

wrote on 09/20/1999

My Quest

where do i go from here?
right now here is hell.
i want out.
i want to find a place
i can call home.
a place that will be my
heaven on earth.
i thought i had found it
many times before, but
it always turned out
to be hell.
now if i could find my
heaven on earth, i would
be happy.
i would be joyful.
i would be content.
i would finally be at the
end of my quest, but
right now my quest seems
to be never ending.
some day soon my quest
will end, i will have found
my heaven on earth

wrote on 01/25/2000

Life It Sucks

Life.
life sucks.
my life in
the dumps.
no fun allowed.
all work.
no play.
making my life.
sad day by day.

wrote on 02/28/2000

Boredom

I am the Queen of Boredom.
welcome to my world.
are you bored yet?
I know i am bored.
i live a boring life.
i want some fun.
fun times with laughter.
fun times with smiles.
not times of boredom,
frowns, or tears.
i'm looking for fun but
i cant find none.
the fun has gone away.
replaced by boredom day
by day.
the fun better come back
soon or so help me i am
gonna go Crazy.

wrote on 02-25-2000

who am i

i can not dream
anymore dreams.
i have tried to dream.
but they just don't
come to me.
i am not who i am
with out my dreams.
if my dreams do not
come back i am lost
to myself and perhaps
the world.
how can i not dream
when my dreams make
me Who I am.

wrote 01/25/2000

Tired

Tired.
Tired of being alone.
Tired of trying.
Trying to find some
one.
some one to share
my life.
my ups.
my downs.
my sadness.
some one to share
my joy.
my happiness, and my
gladness.
some one to share my
life and my love.

wrote on 09/29/2000

Living

Living a life
full of emptiness.
Living a life
full of sadness.
Living a Life
full of nothingness.
I want a life full.
Full of love.
full of happiness.
Full of hope and joy.
full of gladness.
i want a life that is
full and complete.

wrote on 08/15/2000

Life is a Joke

Life around me is as
i see it. I see it as a joke.
no one is getting the punch
line. To tell the truth, i don't
get the punch line.
I am alone here, that is the joke
that life has bestowed upon me.
it seems that life loves to make
me the butt of its crappy little
jokes. All of the time too.
look some one likes me.
ha ha ha now no one likes me.
well that's the joke that is always
pulled on me.
life is a joke.
so why ain't i laughing.

wrote on 7/24/2000

Lucky

lucky.
that's not me.
i am not lucky.
i am unlucky.
nothing goes right for me.
my life has been going
downhill.
cant put the brakes on.
Because there are no brakes.
my life careening out of
control.
nothing i can do but go
along for the ride.
when will it change/
when i hit rock bottom?
or will this ride go on
forever?

wrote on 01/04/2001

Loneliness

Loneliness.
so lonely.
feelings of depression
enveloping my heart.
my heart feeling
like it is suffocating
in a sea of depression.
no where to go.
no one to see.
no one to hold.
no one to love.
so tired of being alone.
so tired of being lonely.
why cant i find someone
who will love me just for me?
some one who will bring me out
of this loneliness that has
turned my life into a dark
sea of despair.

wrote on 11/20/2000

Passing

Life passing by.
day by day
life passing faster.
what do i do?
i stand still.
I watch life pass
me me by.
Pass me by faster
and faster until
it blurs.
zooming by so fast,
making my head hurt,
my eyes blur and my
heart ache,
from the fast pace of life
passing my by.
soon i will take the
leap of faith.
i will join life.
life will no longer
pass me by.

wrote on 02/28/2001

Meaning

i do not know?
i dont know how
much more of this
i can take.
Being alone, i cant
stand it.
it is just not me.
i have so much to give.
i wasnt meant to be alone.
i was put here on this
earth to give of my self.
i have so muich love to give.
i have so much of myself to give.
to find my sopul mate is to
find the true meaning of my life.
i know that when i find my soul mate
i will find true happiness.
the true menaing of why god put me
on this earth.

wrote on01/21-2001

Ups & Downs

Living a life of ups.
Living a life of downs.
right now this life has
more downs than ups.
how much?
How much more can i take?
I am not sure, only giod has the
answer to that question.
it has to get better then this.
i am on the edge.
my nerves are frazzled.
i feel as if i am being driven
into the ground by craziness.
i feel if i get hit by another
down, i may never get up again.
i need to come up for air.
i feel as if i am swimming in a
sea of despair.
it has got to get better.
for my own sanity it better.

wrote on 04/15/2001

Silence

the silence is deafening.
all i can hear is nothingness.
there is no sound to tell
where i am.
there is no sound to tell just
who i am.
how can i ever find my way
in this world with out sound.
with silence as my new friend.
a new constant companion.
i do not like my new companion.
but it seems i must endure her
until i an find my way.
i need to get out of this dismal
and dark abyss of silence.
when i do, there will be no
silence, only sound and i will
know where i am and who
i am, since i am me and me alone.

wrote on 03/15/2005

Free

Free Me.
I want to be free.
free of my mind.
free of my body.
free of the shackles
that keep me grounded.
free to float.
float above high,
high above the
clouds.
oh to be free
free to be me.

wrote on 04/25/2000

Coming to Terms

coming to terms
with my life.
never going to be
any ones wife.
my life is full of strife.
how can i cope? when
i am so low on hope?
some people cope
by taking dope.
but i am not them.
i an not cope by
taking dope.
I will surely lose
the rest of my hope.
so i will come to
\terms with my life.
I shall cope with my
strife.
maybe i will get an infusion
of hope and get a new and
better life.

wrote on 03-05-2000

Wondering

wondering? what is going on?
What is happening to me, to
my life? my life is so screwed up.
it is in shambles, shattered
at my feet. Wondering?
Why i didn't listen
to the people that tried to
keep me from making the
mistakes i made and messing up?
Wondering?
Why did i ever believe you?
why did i ever listen to you?
why didn't I listen to any one else?
I guess i wanted to believe,
needed to believe, that no one
would use me, abuse me.
I never thought that no one
would ever take advantage of me.
Wondering why I couldn't see
through your lies and stories,
when ever one else did.
Wondering?
Is love Blind? Is it deaf?
Perhaps love is both blind and death.
why is love so hard to understand?
This is the question that has me
sitting here wondering.

Wrote on 05-25-2001

For You My Friend

For you my friend
I give you my friendship.
for you my friend
I give you my love.
For you my friend
I would give you
the moon and stars.
For you my friend
I give you my smile.
A smile that you
bring to my face.
for you my friend
I give you my arms,
to hold you up when
you need steadiness,
to keep you safe when
your scared, to keep you
warm when you are cold.
For you my friend
I give you my friendship
for all eternity.

Wrote on 08-20-2004

Triumph Over Darkness

Darkness is trying to over take me
trying to quell my spirit.
making me shiver with burgeoning
fear.
the darkness is trying to blacken
my heart, to darken it with fear.
it is trying to dampen my spirit,
my spirit is strong, so i stand.
my resolve is immense, so i stay.
my heart is valiant so i fight.
I will die trying to keep my
spirit bright, my heart light.
I will win against it.
I will show no fear towards it.
I stand with my feet planted
defiantly on this earth.
With my fists raised in triumph
against this darkness.

wrote on 08-25-2003

Come on

come on, whats taking
you so long?
I am right here cant you
see me?
I know your out there.
some where.
somewhere you are out
there looking for me.
I am here looking for
you. I cant find you.
your not here yet.
your some where looking
for me. sooner or later
we will find each other.
i hope it is sooner
and not later.

wrote on 09-30-2004

Follow Me

Follow me.
Follow me to the sky.
A place so high, so
high you can touch
the sky.
Follow me to this place.
Allow your soul to soar.
to become one with the
sky. follow me so high.
follow me to the sky.

wrote on 09-30-2004

Wanting

I am lonely.
lonely in my bed
and lonely in my heart.
There is no one next to me
to hold me tight. no one
to keep me safe and warm.
no one to love me as i need
to be loved. no one for me to
love. I want to hold some one
tight in my arms.
let them no they are loved.
make them feel as warm and safe
as they would make me feel.
I want a man who can show me
all the wonders of love in bed as
well as out of bed.

Wrote on 10-10-2004

Apart Yet Together

Loving you is the one thing
that is right in this world.
I just cant seem to get
enough of you, though
we are so far apart.
I feel you in my heart.
I feel in my heart that
we are together.
Holding, loving, kissing,
just being together.
I can feel your kisses, though
our lips have never touched.
I feel your hands on me,
though your hands have
never touched my body.
I feel your arms, so strong
around me.
Like a life preserver.
I can feel your love, though
it is so many miles away,
i can still feel you, can
you feel me.

wrote on 10-01-2004

Stand in for Love

How could I have been so stupid.
To think that i could ever be
some one that you could love.
I Love You.
I know now that you will never
love me as i love you.
I don't have the right name.
I don't have the right face or
the right body that you truly
love.
I guess I am just a stand in for love.
But when she is back, what now?
Where am i to go from here.
all my bridges have been burned.
I have no family, no friends to turn to.
you have seen to that. How am i to
cope with out you.
I truly love you. Not having your
love is tearing my heart and soul
apart.

wrote on 10-03-2004

Pain of Love

Broken hearted.
Disillusioned.
a soul cries out
in vain. a heart
cries out in pain.
Love........
love an mend a soul
and heart. it can tear
the same two apart
from experience i
have learned the
undeniable truth,
love can heal, love
can mend, love can
and does save a soul
from total damnation
Love on some levels can
hurt a person to the very
core of their being.

wrote on 10-07-2004

No Love

There is no love
I have to call
my own. No
love to wipe
my tears.
no love to quell
my fears.
no love to fill my
heart.
no love to fill my
life with joy.
no one to hold.
no one to comfort.
no one to know me
and the live i have
to give.

wrote on 10-07-2004

Dancing Into The Mist

Love for me was a stranger.
A stranger that came and went.
It comes into my life, dances
with me until i begin to think it
is real. Then it disappears
dancing into the mist again,
never to be seen again until
it decides to come and play
with my heart again.
Me in my infinite wisdom,
what do I do? i let it come
back to me knowing full well
the pain, the heart ache and
the heart ache i will feel, when
love again dances into the mist.

wrote on 10-09-2004

Healing Words

Words flowing free.
Unfettered by the mind.
Heal a wounded heart.
A soul torn apart by
hurtful actions and
reactions.
the healing words can
soothe a soul that has
been shattered.
These healing words
can be spoken or written.
These healing words are my
lifeline. They keep me
going day by day.
They are whispers on the
wind. let them heal you as
they have healed me.

wrote on 07-14-2005

Gods Plan

Through this bad time
I know you feel pain
Just remember God
wants you to remain
sustained
keep your head up
and always understand
that this was all
of Gods greater plan

wrote on 10-25-2003

Three Doors Down

three doors down the man sits alone.
Alone in his home, alone in the dark.
He is alone with only his memories.
No one to talk to but himself, Now he
even ran out of things to say to himself.
He is all alone now
more alone than he has ever felt before.
no one cares enough to see if he is alright.
no one cares if he lives or dies tonight.
he looks at the table beside him.
he stares at gun laying beside him.
he lays his hand upon the gun.
it is cold to the touch, but oddly
he feels good that it is there.
he thinks to himself; where did
i go wrong with my life?
no one loves him. no one cares.
he has no wife, no children.
no one who will miss him when
he is gone. he looks at the gun again.
why did he buy it? why does he need it?
he picked up the gun. he stared at it as
if mesmerized. Slowly he lifted it to his
temple. His hands trembled but he was calm.
He pulls the trigger and then he felt nothing.
And sadly no one misses him.
no one cared he had lived, no one cared
he had died

wrote on 08-30-2001

Our Love

Lover of mine let me look
into your eyes. let me see
what you are feeling.
Let me touch your soul
with just a look, a look
of love that is ever so
strong. A look of love
that will let you know
the strength of my love.
The strength of our love
is strong, our love is
everlasting. Our love is
eternal, our love will go
on forever.

wrote on 06-15-2003

With My Mothers Love

With my mothers love
I came to be
with my mothers love
I grew
with my mothers love
I learned to live
with my mothers love
I learned to give
with my mothers love
I learned right from wrong
with my mothers love
I learned to love
with my mothers love
I learned I can be
what ever i want to be
with my mothers love I am me


wrote on 09-15-2004

Ignorantly Blissful

How can I remember who I am
When I can not even remember
What I was or where I came from?
How can a person who has been
Lied to be thought to know what
And who she is and what she is
Supposed to be,
When all of her life and memories
Are nothing but lies and half truths?
When I was born, was I wanted?
That Is the burning question that I have
On my mind daily. Where can I find
The truth, when all who knew are dead?
What am I supposed to do,
Go through life pretending to
Know who I am, or go out and
Find the truth? Perhaps the truth
Is better left unknown.
I am happy as me now. Do I
Want to screw this up and lose
All of what I have?
No I do not. I will go through life
Being ignorantly blissful.

Anne Marie McMicheals, June, 25th, 2008